54th entry: Recovering Period -

I'm always thinking that i am a strong, not sensitive, cold person etc. But it went upside down when it's all proven under certain bad situation happened in my life. I thought after a whole day crying would cool me down and may recover. But then, my eyes went flooded with tears again after 2 or 3 days. So, i guess i have to stop thinking so much, get myself busy with anything that doesn't remind me for that fact. And i promised myself that i will try my best to smile in front of my friends.

And, to my dear friend who read this, you know who you are, let me say this:-

*Thousand apologies with whole my heart for refusing. Please expect that it may happen again in the future. I am really sorry. I don't mind to be called arrogant, selfish, etc. Let me be the bad person here. Just give me some times until we meet again. Facing my dear friends is the thing i don't prepare the most. It reminds me the fact that i am a failure in my life. I'm in the state that i am so jealous and embarrass with all of you.
  And to tell the truth, i am now trying to avoid meeting you guys face to face. Once meeting i know there will be Q&A session which regard wth is going on in my life nowadays and i 'm not ready to answers that. I am too fragile to be sad again. I'll tell you someday when i totally prepare. I'm sorry again~end!

ok! done for now. Let's open new page! no more sadness.

Mentally ill,
<Kwon Fifi>